Don't bother I'll be fine So here are the whole story. There I spent my first two semesters and moved to Hanover dannach. Well, in the second semester, an instructor tells us that a group of Americans for 10 weeks and you come to Oldenbrug quasi could apply to become "buddies" from one to easily take care of something for which, what to do with those who help when they need help etc. naja and Sepp was my buddie.
I have a general scwäche for Americans, I was even 1 year exchange student in Ohio dannach and I also spent two summer there to work and now I study American Studies. if you can love affairs, my ex-men / whatever, look at you find a "slight" tendency to AMIS. * G * naja so Sepp 2007 came to Oldenburg and we have also made friends well, but he had a girlfriend at the time, Lace. He rumgejammert all the time only that he would miss her and she is then led to a week extra to Oldenburg. Well I quickly realized that I could fall in love quite easily into it, and went on clearance. would not have been so useful. Also at that time was have not entirely at peace with myself annoyed friends, etc. Well I thought of when I do not so much with him and the others I do not fall in love in him. Nope. I'm obviously still in love with him. contracted men are off limits for me, and I'm always quite cautious regarding men. I honestly thought that even he does not like me really. well I'm even more distance to go and after 10 weeks he is again back in the States and the whole was for me now, not as the pain of separation and to be honest I got him pretty quickly forgotten.
I then moved to Hanover and that was the final thing eaten. also had no more contact. and that was ok Sun
until last year. in April (?) 2008 I was at some time in the morning on facebook online, and so did he. and he has written to me about this chat. in America it was the middle of the night. Well we have talked several hours, and it was really fun, and I think he was pretty drunk. the essence of the conversation was that he was then in love with me and that he would love me forever and that he would come back to Germany, supposedly only because of me. Well my experience is that talking amis much if the day is long, and they also believe that Germany is indeed just around the corner. I've found it very sweet the whole but not paid very much attention.
Well then comb-December 2008. I had the whole time, not thought of him and then he wrote me on facebook or icq, I know it does not as accurately. The day before my birthday. Well since we had pretty much back contact, sometimes almost daily for several hours but only over the internet. It was great fun to talk to him. you could talk about God and the world. Well he gave me because he said would come back to Germany, supposedly only because of me. naja habs I long believed, but not quite sometime but it was all concrete. naja our conversations were then in a certain direction and sometimes I had the feeling that we had we bought real hospitable towards us, we would pretty quickly wore no klamtotten more ...* g * well if I've blocked all but always something, but you can still flirt. I mean I'm trying to be realistic. I know I have myself in recent years changed quite a bit and I am sure he is. Well, nothing helped, but I'm totally in love with him, but never told him directly. because I was afraid that yes but somehow nothing would come of it. naja talks went on, flirting went on, and one day it was then a week before his 09th after takeoff early May, Germany he wrote me he would love me. I asked him how he could be as safe as, and he said he knew it ... I've tried my ankh still climb as not so pure and at first to be seen.
Well then in early May, he is on a Wednesday flown to Germany to study again in Oldenburg for a semester. I live in Hanover mitlerweile so I'm on friday night went out had previously been a common friend, Deike, agreed that I could stay with her. Well we have entertained little something are drunk then to celebrate the city and back towards the dorm at about four or apartment is, fortunately in a direction. So we have two distance away holding hands in front and the rest with chaperones 5 meters behind us. usn have a nice time, unfortunately, was away much too short and too soon we were standing outside the front door, and unfortunately, the other a minute later, but had a good night kiss I still get. : D Had Deike face it maybe should have seen .... In many respects it is sometimes unrelaxt something and so I've been so half-expected that I get from her dressing-ne, but no, she just smiled at me when we were in her apartment and has meant "Well then we see you again so often in oldenburg.
Well the next morning I then Deike sepp and had breakfast and are still nervous girlfriend then pulled together by the city and Around noon, I had returned home because I was still a date. 've still got a farewell kiss.
sepp and I did on Wednesday agreed on it again, this time as a couple and it was really nice. are in the botanical garden in oldenburg us have been entertained, etc and it was just a perfect day. Unfortunately, the afternoon had to return to Hanover because I drink with sandra to test their wanted and this appointment was really long and I wanted to cancel non wirklch. So I returned to Hanover.
we were in between daily contact via ICQ, were given in both StudiVZ as assigned and everything was perfect.
the first time would have long veeeery long time that I got to involved with a man. I have not really had good experiences with men. some time ago to me is a "friendly" meeting them a little too close and did not know where the limit is, could not let his finger from me. was an experience in which I have to Kabbe still pretty, but I usually come to mitleriweile clear.
naja at the weekend on it has come together with 3 friends to Hanover sepp have stayed here one night, he was even allowed to sleep in my bed (as I said I have a problem with and let no one near as easily ran at me ... .).
am on Wednesday it was because I went to oldenburg Ascension Thursday and I was free there. I had kept open to me if I with him, about Deike, or even spend the night there. have picnics in the park with friends and I was up to 10 still at uni Deike because sepp still had and he then picked me, I brought things to him and we are in the city with three people celebrate and gone.
to 4 are sepp and I head toward dormitory geganegn und wer hätte das gedacht, wir sind zusammen im bett gelandet........ ja anfürsich ja nicht shclimm.... nur ist mitten drin die sache mit dem "freund" wieder hoch gekommen und ich hab auf einmal komplett geblockt. ich hatte ihm das nicht erzählt, denn ich will es einfach nur noch vergesssen und meisstens kann ich das auch, aber in dem moment war alles wieder so present. ich hab panik bekommen und mich komplett zurück gezogen. ich hab mich dann wieder etwas beruhigen lassen und hab ihm das dann auch erzählt und er war eigentlich ganz verständnisvoll, und er meinte es wäre ok wenn wir noch warten würden. naja hab dann da übernachtet, Well and we say it so he has come to its other costs, but hey it should be but please do not complain ..... I gave him then confessed that I was already in love in him, he was all the time in the morning when we were still in bed suspiciously quiet, but he was also somewhat cold and I thought he did is simply mu de etc. ........
I had to go home at lunchtime because I was there verabretet with my parents and I am alone then went to the train station, and he's been left ... He even said I should call him when I was there that I, too, but generally was pretty quiet.
naja dannach I also needed some distance, WE also had to be on again look at my parents and we have now and then while talking via icq, but had identified no time when we meet again, and I had the feeling that our discussions always ICQ surface floor lord be. whenever I'm asked when we came back we see only a superficial answer back ..... He then had his status changed StudiVZ no longer awarded. Although not solo but not awarded.
Well the rest is again below in more detail, but the short version is: after a few days at some point of the surface small talk I went on the offensive. have asked him what was going on. passiet naja and the rest is below what has ever since.
I'm gone on icq konfrontoation, have asked him what was wrong and he just said he would not be willing to be friends girlfriend. blablabla. I was pretty pissed off, because it does a lot like "I Wolte only with you to bed and now it's all over," sounded. have responded and so I thought he would be childish and we would hire me just blablabla .... Well this went back and forth for a while until I feel like at some point run out or had no power to discuss more and I've only said that I'm going offline now.
Well then nothing more from him until I dannach him on WE early in the morning after too much alcohol and too much celebrating a mail've gechrieben, because of what it should, and that he could talk to your views clear text, because I think it's great in the momen texplained special. here's the answer:
Maggie, I'll tell
in English because it is easier.
I'm not that upset with you about the incident the other night that's not the big deal. The thing that I was concerned more about was just the feeling I got, Whether real or imagined, that you were infatuated with me, Which is a bit of an anxiety for me, considering my short stay here. I did not mean to implicate that all I wanted from you was sex, at all You are a very dear girl to me, and I really did enjoy our time together, and I would, in fact, enjoy seeing you again. I just did not want you to get the feeling like this was a committed relationship, because that's an impractical and downright dangerous road to travel down for both of us. So please, let's continue talking, and hopefully we can see each other soon!
lg
sepp so what can we say. I got him invited to Hannover then again by mail, what was but no reaction. then got a couple of times to talk about it Deike, with not too much because I wanted to move in, because we are both friends with him. they already said that he suffers under it, I ask mitlerweile MCIH but if she has not only told me to love .....
had been the mail from un to contact via icq where I've asked him but if he wants to come hannover. I did not want to put him under pressure. until he then suggested a few weeks ago to meet. I was always arranged in oldenburg friend with another, and I pushed him in quasi with, and take as Well as this was indeed below.
meet twice more since we had contact via ICQ, the first time take a few days after that, but because he wanted only that I Deike calls and tell her that she should call him yet because he has no money left on the phone. .... I've ignored, I'm not bimbo. and the second time he has thanked for a travel guide. yes he is from August to one year in the excessive make something slovakia FSJ. and when we were together I had a tourist guide for the purchase slovakia english. and because I wanted to stand here nciht around, because he reminds me of him I got him where Deike, and that should give him, because I wanted to give him personally. but would become a little funny. since we had no more contact. I was torn and then suddenly came this invitation to the party last weekend .....
and he commented on my facebook status .... no idea ...... I sometimes get the feeling that he did not know so exactly what he wants ......... vlt just have grass over this situation and if he is in slovakia then I will talk directly to him once what he thought on it went to wrong. but what is nciht. for if he is in Slovak, it's already too late to change anything to anything. vlt but we can not exactly build then at least something like friendship. no idea whether I want it, but the idea that we can have no more contact, I can not stand in the moment too.
yes thats the story ,....... I know some little kindergarten, but oh well ....... comments?
today is wednesday. mitlweile I've given up the hope that we see us again. previously he was with facebook online, but I I do not dare to write it. I'm torn. think on the one hand it's better that way.
