maggiems @ 2009-11-07T15:13:00
hey my love!
I send you love all greetings from bremen. yesterday I went to Janice and I bremner to me their apartment views. totally sweet! sometimes I miss it on my own to live. I have my flat benefits really are, and in Hanover ego could probably afford not to live alone, and I would isolate myself because certainly a lot more than I do anyway to time. but on the other hand, has sometimes halt to even their own dirt away and if you left the apartment clean and orgdentlich then you know also that it is so when one comes home. ichj stay until tomorrow here in HB because Rachel Birthday celebrating. I'm so beat time out very well come to brighten my mood on a noticeable. I have to try again the beautiful part of Hanover to see, because often I go through the city and think to myself, that there really is nothing special. and I have again set up something better. I mean I got everything I need, but I think I could with wenigebn and simple things to do all more beautiful. just more at home.
deshalbn I'm looking forward to tomorrow shcon I denek I will not stay as long in the morning more on HB, so I still make it home what can.
I'm looking forward to the Christmas season. I'm thinking that I maybe in December n small (very small) Tannenbaum buy. we can place it in the kitchen and very spartan decoration. Just because I do not spend much money for something like that, but I think it would cheer me up.
übnrigens I was yesterday in Gehrden. the post was nothing important. only ne medical bill that I must send it to papa, but that's it. advertising. have not washed and now I finally have clean clothes, and cheaper than in the laundromat was it.
R. bugs me still pretty. I'm actually on Thursday indicated quite clearly that it my time is not very good and I'm just simply depressing. I know containing not what I wanted to hear from her, but I got the feeling that I did not take seriously. Mir gehts really dirty and I would quite here almost describe as a live Kriese. but she wipes the gesture with ner away so casually. yes is not all that bad ..... somehow annoys me mad and disappointed. something I do not understand at best friendly. and if we stelae, then they talk and talk and then I sit there and always come to say no to something. Well maybe I should not get too excited about it as me, but I just say yes good way it is. and I accept that our friendship's just become so superficial (vlt. always was ???!). On Monday
is my only semester also, so I'm free. I think I'll be times that the PC attack take. Just in the morning now and say that I've forgotten, or that I thought that my sister had already picked up the PC or something. the already will not be so angry .... dassich him since August as did stand and yes he gets his money and I need to really stop him time to send insurance.
check off just one thing after another. Tomorrow I will sort out and clean up my room again and things. I have the feeling that my überqillt room sometimes, it is not so full, I think it is just disorganized. have considering whether to me for Christmas no matter how great Billy do shelf. I kan put there something more pure, and I think vlt then even more right if I've more or less shelf ... and so expensive that also do not.
achja Stephan has recently asked me what I am 18.12. (My birthday) do. I do not know yet. My parents kojmmen yes at 14.12. again. (I have to think up what a lot again, have no idea what Gehrden prepared for cooking, or at least paint a plate or so ...) The 18th is a Friday, and there could be out celebrating, of course good, but is dependent also goofy as it may be that many people have gone back to the home are Christmas there. Although I am 21 - and 22 uni yet, but very many others, have since nothing more ... hm .... celebrate and January is also stupid because of exam etc. naja is still somewhat time-out. Well in any case wanted stephan well with me birthday party .... How about that? is nice, but I do not know if I will ... or I know so well that I do not want him (his best friend is the way that Fritz, who always wanted to have my address and also the time (still?) was wanted of me. Well let's see if I friends celebration, I invite them vlt one, however, is in celebration of december always stupid because there is money anyway scarcer than scarce. because of Christmas and New Year etc. ..
naja have to think about it again easily.
well I'll now Rach again for help Slice ... I register the day again. I hope you gheht good!!
BTW: another 5 days until I go to lilac mind! should I slowly let me think ..... I pack up:)
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....weiß nicht was Liebe ist...
I think all I want to achieve in life is normal. I want to live a normal, I want to be normal, I want a normal family, with small house dog, two children, nem man and n jobs. a bourgeois life, a happy family. everything I never had. I never had a happy family. I reveled in the luxury and exceptional. Please do not understand me wrong, this is far from bad, I had all I could do to me, except the one thing I really needed vlt have, love. I wonder if I ever know what love is. love for me I feel alive, at least, nothing. no, just the contrary vlt, hate. disability compared to my hate, hate towards my body. I want to order. gereglte conditions such as mans say.
the moment but I'm going in the opposite direction.
I realize that I sepp the history of time have not yet. and somehow I come slowly to me something ridiculous, because as long as we were not together. however, was the foreplay just already a few months longer.
is clear it not as bad as a few months ago, but how I shall get him out of my head? I would like to see him again. I would like to know if he really did no more feelings for me, because he writes for me in icq actually far too often. I would like to be able to read thoughts. I once told him that I eventually want to ask something he thinks what went wrong is. but I think it does not want to know more, or I think I know it already. he just wanted me in bed with. I know that it is probably not an easy man to have a relationship, but a little understanding I will just already have with me.
what hinnsicht me in the somewhat annoying is that R. (my so called best friend ....) apparently not interested. she never wanted to hear the whole story. and each time when her ego was telling annähnernd I did not really feel that they are interested. it does stop at just as if it were not bad.
oh yes I was on Friday in Oldenburg, the birthday of Deike. that was the first time I had since months back. Strictly speaking, the first time since my last meeting with Sepp ... was bizarre. just run through the city and think every minute two, yes Because we were there and yes we kissed .... but it was about. when I was at Deike wars nich so great. was okay but two comic moments were at it. For instance, I'd also like to Deike described my view of things. for it is nunmal ne common friend of us, but also because I had the feeling as though they were not interested. okay I can live with, even if not I find great, because I know not what Sepp told her. Well then as we went to bed guess, sometimes in whose bed sheets and bedding in whose I slept .... yes, exactly, Sepp. When she got out of the schrnak did that was also back such a small impact in the face. I think so is just bedclothes, but already containing n strange feeling to sleep in, and to think that he has slept in it as the last. she smelled soagr sometimes still after him. wars certainly meant no harm, but maybe something would have been able to think. then she asked me if I still have his address in slovakia wants. (I will not, are you proud of me ???!!!) and then she is on facebook and online comments on what sepp writes. I sit and think to myself just so that is something that he does and writes, but why tell me? they can not see that I want to not know where? I can not act as if nothing had happened between sepp and me and we are just friends again?
oh man .... anything stupid.
driving tonight after I Gehrden. I have to wash, wash in the long run because the washing saloon is a bit expensive, and if you already have any money anyway then it's really stupid when you're too lazy to half an hour in the bus and instead prefer to set for 20 € the washing saloon and since then spends rummsitzt stupid. this is the first time since mid-september that I go there, 'll go back again tomorrow. plus I have to do with the PC, I must get my coat, because in the long run it is a little cold in a thin summer jacket and I have to look after even the little things.
this week was the first in a lecture. Today I go out two to which I still do not. So I have since my absences have also been used. naja angry does not help now. and head in the sand does not stick. I myself just made a list on the things I've written that I'm looking forward. Unfortunately, as yet only three things on it: 1 This weekend in Bremen 2nd next weekend in Mannheim third Mama and Papa come again (never thought that I as looking forward to it .... but it is something a lot easier, also financially. probably not much but something.) I know now something short list. but I'm going to imagine me a few things. can also be little things, such as cinema or something. or a beauty day. something small that lets me get through the day. Punch and Christmas market I can also look forward to more. you have ideas yet?
well I'll make something to eat, and I have three already in the uni. fortunately, only up by 6 deep breath. everything will be fine. no one pulls my head off.
I think all I want to achieve in life is normal. I want to live a normal, I want to be normal, I want a normal family, with small house dog, two children, nem man and n jobs. a bourgeois life, a happy family. everything I never had. I never had a happy family. I reveled in the luxury and exceptional. Please do not understand me wrong, this is far from bad, I had all I could do to me, except the one thing I really needed vlt have, love. I wonder if I ever know what love is. love for me I feel alive, at least, nothing. no, just the contrary vlt, hate. disability compared to my hate, hate towards my body. I want to order. gereglte conditions such as mans say.
the moment but I'm going in the opposite direction.
I realize that I sepp the history of time have not yet. and somehow I come slowly to me something ridiculous, because as long as we were not together. however, was the foreplay just already a few months longer.
is clear it not as bad as a few months ago, but how I shall get him out of my head? I would like to see him again. I would like to know if he really did no more feelings for me, because he writes for me in icq actually far too often. I would like to be able to read thoughts. I once told him that I eventually want to ask something he thinks what went wrong is. but I think it does not want to know more, or I think I know it already. he just wanted me in bed with. I know that it is probably not an easy man to have a relationship, but a little understanding I will just already have with me.
what hinnsicht me in the somewhat annoying is that R. (my so called best friend ....) apparently not interested. she never wanted to hear the whole story. and each time when her ego was telling annähnernd I did not really feel that they are interested. it does stop at just as if it were not bad.
oh yes I was on Friday in Oldenburg, the birthday of Deike. that was the first time I had since months back. Strictly speaking, the first time since my last meeting with Sepp ... was bizarre. just run through the city and think every minute two, yes Because we were there and yes we kissed .... but it was about. when I was at Deike wars nich so great. was okay but two comic moments were at it. For instance, I'd also like to Deike described my view of things. for it is nunmal ne common friend of us, but also because I had the feeling as though they were not interested. okay I can live with, even if not I find great, because I know not what Sepp told her. Well then as we went to bed guess, sometimes in whose bed sheets and bedding in whose I slept .... yes, exactly, Sepp. When she got out of the schrnak did that was also back such a small impact in the face. I think so is just bedclothes, but already containing n strange feeling to sleep in, and to think that he has slept in it as the last. she smelled soagr sometimes still after him. wars certainly meant no harm, but maybe something would have been able to think. then she asked me if I still have his address in slovakia wants. (I will not, are you proud of me ???!!!) and then she is on facebook and online comments on what sepp writes. I sit and think to myself just so that is something that he does and writes, but why tell me? they can not see that I want to not know where? I can not act as if nothing had happened between sepp and me and we are just friends again?
oh man .... anything stupid.
driving tonight after I Gehrden. I have to wash, wash in the long run because the washing saloon is a bit expensive, and if you already have any money anyway then it's really stupid when you're too lazy to half an hour in the bus and instead prefer to set for 20 € the washing saloon and since then spends rummsitzt stupid. this is the first time since mid-september that I go there, 'll go back again tomorrow. plus I have to do with the PC, I must get my coat, because in the long run it is a little cold in a thin summer jacket and I have to look after even the little things.
this week was the first in a lecture. Today I go out two to which I still do not. So I have since my absences have also been used. naja angry does not help now. and head in the sand does not stick. I myself just made a list on the things I've written that I'm looking forward. Unfortunately, as yet only three things on it: 1 This weekend in Bremen 2nd next weekend in Mannheim third Mama and Papa come again (never thought that I as looking forward to it .... but it is something a lot easier, also financially. probably not much but something.) I know now something short list. but I'm going to imagine me a few things. can also be little things, such as cinema or something. or a beauty day. something small that lets me get through the day. Punch and Christmas market I can also look forward to more. you have ideas yet?
well I'll make something to eat, and I have three already in the uni. fortunately, only up by 6 deep breath. everything will be fine. no one pulls my head off.
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