2 AM and she calls me cause I'm still awake, can you help me unravel my latest mistake Hey!
ok I have to again write a few things from the soul. So the friend of my parents just called that mitleriweile three letters waiting for me. No idea. One could be the semester documents. another might be by the German bank because I have some time ago applied for online banking. the third could medical bill of 12 be August. this is even quite likely when I think about it. The homework I still have not delivered. I'm afraid. I fly to New Zealand on Saturday. I have to write this damn homework done. Is always a miracle when sies takes now. would also be ok if I pass with 4.0. the main thing I insist. I could say that the Post has returned and I was gone and so have noticed only now.
I've made no later than Thursday to go there because I have to wash urgent. Yes I'm flying on Saturday already. I'm really scared. I mean before the letters not before the flight. New Zealand I am happy. I just hope to get a clear head.
The monetary problem has been solved by the way: my grandma gave me kindly paid 300 euro. Although she knows nothing of my money problems, but they wanted me to stop subsidizing the trip. now I'm on my German bank account is about +650 on my bank account and € -500 €. My father has not written a letter that he take on the financial cost. so I should get no problems on entry. I'll try not to spend in NZ so much so that I can balance my other account as soon as possible.
I do not water as I do if one of the letters that I de-registered am. I am sooo stupid.
I'm really most recently wrote a mail to the Telephone Counselling and I also get pretty fast response back ne. I have the answer again, but I had been non iwie it was powerful, but I think it has much of a step.
ok I must breathe deeply now. everything will be fine. there is a solution for everything and life is so or so on.
I'm just a little anxious when the really bad news are out of college that I unfold together. as you have now noticed already I am not in a healthy mental state, and before I even scratched. I am indeed for about 8 months "Clean" and it will stay with God, but I'm a little afraid that I'm in an extreme situation. no, because I can not think at all. we are all good.
I'm told that I was written before last sepp Sonnatg and asked me when I visit him? I was somewhat perplexed. I ahb only be written if I had won the lottery. dannach but first I have googled as best as I get there, and what it would cost me approx. (About 100 € for the bus trip, and the best would be 16 euro per night b & b ...:) I do not know in ner. I miss him. just try not to give him the urge to write he is online. I mean I must be reasonable. I have no money. even though I now spend in NZ hopefully not all the 650 euro. I do not know, I think, of course, not so much to him, but I do miss him anyway. and then I will have him, even though I know perfectly well that it is unrealistic.
I feel like I am in the last few weeks back worse. 've spent more money than I wanted. unis sliding surfaces in front of me. eat, puke, starve.
on Friday I was celebrating with a friend Vici from a pro ana forum in Hamburg on nerve bunting party. I've really enjoyed it, but iwie, the evening ended differently than planned. 've drunk too much, had allegedly with 2 rumgemacht guys (not at the same time !!!!), what I can not remember, and I also vomited, because I can remember, unfortunately .... just wanted sunk into the ground .... well I think vici hath not taken me too bad. I hope at least. angebelich I'm probably disappeared for a time with the ne-five minutes, but I do not think that what has happened. I do know myself too well. would surprise me very much .....
yes so all in all, my life sucks. can probably be as together. cold and I am also.
noon tomorrow so I am a friend agreed to cook. vlt-creating I have to drive it Gehrden dannach yes to. In the morning I finally read the damn housework done and then in the evening / late afternoon I go to get the recipes from Gehrden the doctor and the letters and wash.
Nala, my cat is curled up just ran to me. I will miss them so. I have the little sooo much! it is real at the moment one of the few things that still keeps me alive. that sounds so crass. I mean I'm
only 22 years old and somehow I expect it from me already that I live my perfect to get the series.
oh I go bed early to now. must still make as much in the next few days!